I took these pics on New Year’s Day. I was feeling a bit down, so I decided to do a blue sort of scene, with a play on words… “Happy Blue Year.” For a lot of reasons, New Year’s is tough for me, but it was more than the usual this year. I just felt in my gut entering 2018 that our beloved pup was unlikely to make it to 2019. He was diagnosed with a heart condition late last summer and the truth is, at one point I didn’t even think we’d get one last autumn and holiday season with him. But we did… and yet, I knew it was probably the last. I did my best to make the most of it.
Unfortunately, I had no idea how right my gut was. His condition took a sudden turn for the worse and Thursday morning we had to say goodbye. We’re heartbroken. I’m shattered and utterly devastated. I don’t know how to do this… to live without my baby here. I know time will help me figure it out but I also know I’ll never be the same. Having to say goodbye was brutal… the coming weeks, months, year will be brutal, too. But never having had him would’ve been worse. He made more than a quarter of my life brighter and better. I’m forever changed by having had him in my life.
I don’t have it in me to do a lot more than explain this, share my pics and list credits. But I wanted to get this posted before it got any further into 2018.
And I made a collage of our baby, which I also wanted to share here.
And on a final note, a song that’s been helping me cope a bit, particularly the quote “hold on to the memories, they’ll hold on to you,” which happens to be the title of the headshot. It appropriately came on the radio as we drove home from the vet Thursday morning, and while I sobbed through it, it was also cathartic somehow. Music is magic for me, so I am using it to get through this, as much as I am able.
Maitreya: Lara mesh body
LAQ: Scarlet bento head, Luna skin applier, glitter eyeshadow applier
Foxes: Party headband – Happy New Year – Silver (plain version included)
Exile: Persuasive hair – Reds
Izzie’s: Winter eyes – blues & greys – blue
Cae: Northstar necklace and earrings (group gift)
Decoy: Lianne dress
Ingenue: Lucia heels – Navy
ChicChica: Care To Drink – Champagne glasses and bottle (pic 1), Drink on my own – glass (pic 2)
Embody: Footloose 3 pose (modified by props)
Trompe Loeil – Keithia Tower V1.2
[ keke ] 2018 rosegold . high lod
[ keke ] champagne jello with gold dust
[ keke ] black caviar
[ keke ] white caviar
[ keke ] pink champagne jello with lavender dust
[ keke ] edible gold
[ keke ] glitter sphere . big . rotating
+Half-Deer+ Christmas Set – Ice Blue – FULL TREE SETUP
:::ChicChica::: Bottle REZZ
Cheeky Pea: Country Home Coffee Table Winter
Cheeky Pea: Winter Isle Sofa (PG)
Cheeky Pea: Winter Isle Rug
Elusive: Hanging Pails with Lights Red